an ah-ha moment

so, i've been looking at grad schools right?
and i have found some pretty awesome ones that i am really pumped to apply to, but all of the applicants are required to do a personal essay and an interview.
now, everyone knows these two things involve one particular question; what are your weaknesses?
okay, so here's the *deali(e)(y)o, i'm not arrogant or anything, but i have a hard time thinking of my weaknesses because i don't think anyone really has weaknesses, it is just who they are, and i can't remember the last time i had to answer that question.
i usually put my introvertness but, i really like my introvertness so i don't use it anymore.
but! i thought of one that had never crossed my mind before until the other day and i am actually really glad i did.
i am way too futuristic.
i kinda suck at living in the moment and taking one day at a time.
i think of things like; oh where will i be five years down the road? how many more semesters do i have to graduate? when do i need to apply for grad school? when do i get to start looking for single apartments? where do i hope to be when i'm 30? etc.
i'm not like the responsible futuristic; 'oh, i want to go on a trip next summer so i should start saving money now.'
i'm more of the, 'i cannot wait to be on my own and have my own place and to have the job i love.'
i am just so excited about my life after college i am forgetting that college is the thing getting me to where i want to be. what's the rush?
i was like this senior year.
i was so pumped for college that i didn't think twice about how important senior year is. it's a huge milestone and i just. blinked and it was gone.
i understand college is just a small blip in the rest of our lives but we should really soak our experiences in and not be afraid to fail and make mistakes and to be embarrassed and to take a leap of faith once in awhile.
also, when we graduate our free time and times of going to friends houses at 1 in the morning are just out the window.
i need to learn to take everyday as it's own.
and be even more free spirited then i already am but with my life now, not my life five years from now.
so, when i get that question in my interviews and have to write that essay my answer will be, 'i am to futuristic.'
-see, i am already thinking into the future.
this is what i need to work on.


* i don't know how to spell that word because, well, it isn't a real word.
i almost wanted to put deal-e-o, but that seemed even sillier then what i actually put.