we can be both

i am moving blogs that has a little different purpose then just me babbling on.
for some of you this new blog will be the end of you reading because the topic may be a tough one to take when involving me but i hope you give it a chance and maybe, it will help you understand a little bit better.



it has been a long time since i have blogged. but, i have been asked where i have been, and have more readers...so, what do i talk about?


own the night

i want to break every rule with you.
i want to make every secret with you.
i want to experience every memory with you.
i want to find every adventure with you.
put simply...i want to live and love life with you and only you.

you and me


survival sex...ever heard of it?

so i have a project this semester for my juvenile delinquency class.

the ratio of glbt (gay, lesbian, bi-sexual, transgender) homeless youth to their heterosexual counterparts and the risks associated with being a homeless sexual minority.

there are two findings i have come across...

1) being a homeless sexual minority is risker...for their health, safety and well-being...duh, that's a no brainer.

2) the term 'survival sex.' no! it is not prostitution.

survival sex: exchange sex for money, food, drugs, shelter, clothing and more.
-typically not by choice-

prostitution: sex for money or drugs
-more often by choice-

now yes, these are generic definitions but you get the idea. i know some women go into prostitution for survival, but! that is not the main reason unlike survival sex.
also, survival sex is the term coined for homeless youth.

from a study of 670 homeless youth, 150 considered themselves apart of the GLB community (they did not ask about transgendered youth) of that 150 nearly half were asked to participate in survival sex compared to only 25% on the non-glb homeless youth.



'take a chance, and never look back..

i graduate in may
-no, i am not scared

i did not get into the peace corps

which is totally okay because, i learned what not to do on an application.
-i'm totally down with the peace core being the guinea pig in this situation

will this semester totally kick my ass?

i feel like i am on top of the world, with still so much to learn.

god is good.

i love my life.


this is my dad

this is why i love this movie...the first 1:17 of this clip represents my dad so well.

but. shhhh...don't tell him. ;)

--this clip also represents why i love tinker bell so much...but of course, i love my dad more.


* i got one hand in my pocket and the other one's giv'n a peace sign

i apologize for not being around...

this peace corps thing is becoming very real-me
that's a good thing!-sam
it is! it is a good thing but i am... eez scary though, i used to hate that feeling of being content now that i am, i like it. it's something i'm not used to.-me

so i am in the process of possibly joining the peace corps and there has been one thing i have forgotten;
doing this makes the most sense for who i am, what i want to do in life, what i am called to do and it is the road that will help me get to where i want to be. it is the answer for starting the rest of my life.
however, can i do this? can i be isolated for two years, be away from my family? be away from my friends who i cherish? or be away from that person who loves me and who i want to be with?
then i think of all the things i won't have...possibly not being able to worship the lord like i want, wear the cloths i want, or have christmas dinner...will i be able to have skittles ever? or watch an american movie?!
i want to do this, i do! i can see myself doing this and thriving at it, it is just, there are so many variables that intertwine with this decision.
so, this is what i am going to do...go through the application process like i have been and remember that this is still a year away and not forget about the life i am living now...because right now, right this moment, i would not want to pass it up for anything.

*the pocket holds everything else in my life that i am not sure if i am ready to leave.