so lately i have been a blogging machine.
maybe it will be one of those things where i blog all the time because it is something new, and after awhile i just won't think about it.
or...it is because the whole concept of blogging is just really interesting.
through my 20 blogs thus far, i have been able to see how clumsy i really am, reconnect with an old friend, and learn even more about the friends around me.
i do not know the point to this particular post, but it is 1 in the morning and i have to get up at 7 for a final and i am starting to get really frustrated with this lack of sleep...this is where the blogging comes in.
i have been an insomniac for years, i can go to my room at 10 and not fall asleep till 2 or 3...so infuriating.
i have so many thoughts running through my head, i rewind on my whole day, day before that and sometimes the day before that.
i think of situations that happened and then i think of every way that situation could have ended up if i did something different and then i get mad at myself for not doing that different thing...does that make sense?
so i have realized, if i blog, maybe i will be able to go to sleep faster., by getting my thoughts out...but that means i cannot blog at 1 in the morning...it defeats the purpose.
i am not saying i am going to unravel my day every night, that is silly and i am not that important that people would not want to know about my day...i am not that interesting.
the point of this blog is for me to be silly, but more importantly to talk out my clumsiness (hence the title), and not being able to sleep in a way is clumsy because the reason i can't sleep is because i fret about what has already happened and cannot be changed.
so lets give this a try and then maybe after years of not sleeping, i can finally fall a sleep at a decent hour.
12.17.2008
12.16.2008
f for lack of effort
the 30 day trial i was going to try and do, did not happen.
first of all, i don't think i can do that to my body.
secondly, i don't have time to make mashed potatoes every three days or how ever often i needed to make them to keep up for 30 days.
thirdly, i wanted to try this during the holidays and finals, i was just setting myself up for failure.
so, as of right now, i have an f in this project.
i will do it, but i do not think mashed potatoes should be my food of choice.
but again, i will keep you posted on the progressions of this expierement, that has yet to be started.
-peace-
first of all, i don't think i can do that to my body.
secondly, i don't have time to make mashed potatoes every three days or how ever often i needed to make them to keep up for 30 days.
thirdly, i wanted to try this during the holidays and finals, i was just setting myself up for failure.
so, as of right now, i have an f in this project.
i will do it, but i do not think mashed potatoes should be my food of choice.
but again, i will keep you posted on the progressions of this expierement, that has yet to be started.
-peace-
12.15.2008
sidekicks rock
i have really started to appreciate sidekicks in movies...they are just amazing, they bring fun and laughter, they bring deep emotion and anger, they are the emotion of a film!
here are my top five fav. sidekicks
tinkerbell...she makes people fly, she takes care of peter, she is the ultimate sidekick, she is dear and true to her 'master' and she would even drink the dreadful medicine so peter won't die, all you have to do to bring her back is clap and chant, "i do believe in fairies, i do, i do!"
here are my top five fav. sidekicks
tinkerbell...she makes people fly, she takes care of peter, she is the ultimate sidekick, she is dear and true to her 'master' and she would even drink the dreadful medicine so peter won't die, all you have to do to bring her back is clap and chant, "i do believe in fairies, i do, i do!"
cogsworth and lumerie from beauty and the beast...enough said they are a package deal and bring true love to the beast, how amazing is that. 
mark from empire records...mark is the all time sidekick, not only does he save the store, he thinks he gets eaten by a big monster because he is completely stoned, and he makes out with paintings on walls.
ron weasley....could not be a more perfect fit for the duo of harry and ron, you might be thinking, why didn't i choose harmonie, she is a good sidekick, but she will never beat ron. yes he has his quirks, but who doesn't love a red headed wizard who helps save the day. 
cameron from ferris beullers day off...the movie is about him and giving him the best day ever, that is what makes him a great sidekick...the movie may be named after ferris, but it is really about camerondisney brings the best sidekicks, but their are so many sidekicks in the world of cinema, that they sometimes get overlooked.
so three cheers to all you sidekicks out there!
talk about uncanny
this is my relationship with prayer...
even the 'losing her' reference has to do with my life...go to blog, 'friend one, friend two'
the fray, you found me
I found God on the corner of First in Amistad
where the west was all but one.
All alone, smoking his last cigarette,
I said "where you been?"
He said, "ask anything."
Where were you when everything was falling apart?
All my days, spent by the telephone. that never rang.
All i needed was a call that never came.
The corner of First and Amistad...
Lost and insecure, You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded.
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you? just a little late...
You found me, you found me
In the end, everyone ends up alone.
Losing her, the only one who's ever known who i am, who im not, and who i wanna be.
no way to know how long she will be next to me...
Lost and insecure, You found me, you found me.
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded.
why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, You found me, you found me.
Early morning, city breaks. I've been calling for years and years and years and years.
and you never left me no messages; never sent me no letters; you've got some kind of nerve taking all of our world.
Lost and insecure, You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure, You found me, you found me.
lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded.
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.
Why'd you have to wait, To find me? To find me?
even the 'losing her' reference has to do with my life...go to blog, 'friend one, friend two'
the fray, you found me
I found God on the corner of First in Amistad
where the west was all but one.
All alone, smoking his last cigarette,
I said "where you been?"
He said, "ask anything."
Where were you when everything was falling apart?
All my days, spent by the telephone. that never rang.
All i needed was a call that never came.
The corner of First and Amistad...
Lost and insecure, You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded.
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you? just a little late...
You found me, you found me
In the end, everyone ends up alone.
Losing her, the only one who's ever known who i am, who im not, and who i wanna be.
no way to know how long she will be next to me...
Lost and insecure, You found me, you found me.
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded.
why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, You found me, you found me.
Early morning, city breaks. I've been calling for years and years and years and years.
and you never left me no messages; never sent me no letters; you've got some kind of nerve taking all of our world.
Lost and insecure, You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure, You found me, you found me.
lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded.
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.
Why'd you have to wait, To find me? To find me?
the ups and downs of 2008
it is the night before finals, and i should be studying, but i'm not, instead i am going to reminise about the past year of 2008
i was officially on academic probabtion...awesome(written with sarcasm).
i saw my sister 4 times has much as i usually do, considering she lives in nashville.
i am no longer a teenager, considering i turned 20.
i moved from a house to an apartment.
i broke my finger, first bone i have ever broken and steve was the one who did it.
i got over my addiction to cutting.
my relationship with God hasn't gotten better...not that it isn't bad, it just hasn't progressed.
i made lifelong friends, and got closer to the amazing friends i already had.
sam
alicia
megan
donnie
hannah blick
hannah baker
-just to name a few
i lost probably the most important document on my computer...i am still not over it.
my senior pastor at covenant chapel left, and that was heartbreaking, but i know it was for the best.
found a church in manhattan that i love, the well.
became more comfortable in my own skin.
was with my grandmother when she found out she was getting a transplant...kind of a weird feeling.
didn't get to see some amazing movies.
before the devil knows you're dead
the savages
no country for old men
how to lose friends and alienate people
there will be blood
-just to name a few
am still in the process of learning how to manage money.
was in my first wedding as a bridesmaid.
was judged in a way no one should ever be judged.
went to three amazing concerts in one summer...will probably never happen again.
OAR
the Kooks, Rogue Wave, Death Cab for Cutie
Sigur ros
my dog died.
started this blog.
got my second tatoo.
1 john 4:18-19
-LOVE-
got to do what i love and lead amazing middle schoolers over the summer and whenever i go home.
became way more outgoing.
gave a boy my number.
i still struggle with not feeling important around my friends, or feeling like a burden.
i think those are just the biggies, some more than others, but if i think of anymore i will add them. However, even though all this stuff happened, i haven't changed that much, yeah i became more confident, but the same things happen around the same time of year, life is just one thing after another and then repeat...life is like a shampoo bottle.
what will 2009 bring?
i was officially on academic probabtion...awesome(written with sarcasm).
i saw my sister 4 times has much as i usually do, considering she lives in nashville.
i am no longer a teenager, considering i turned 20.
i moved from a house to an apartment.
i broke my finger, first bone i have ever broken and steve was the one who did it.
i got over my addiction to cutting.
my relationship with God hasn't gotten better...not that it isn't bad, it just hasn't progressed.
i made lifelong friends, and got closer to the amazing friends i already had.
sam
alicia
megan
donnie
hannah blick
hannah baker
-just to name a few
i lost probably the most important document on my computer...i am still not over it.
my senior pastor at covenant chapel left, and that was heartbreaking, but i know it was for the best.
found a church in manhattan that i love, the well.
became more comfortable in my own skin.
was with my grandmother when she found out she was getting a transplant...kind of a weird feeling.
didn't get to see some amazing movies.
before the devil knows you're dead
the savages
no country for old men
how to lose friends and alienate people
there will be blood
-just to name a few
am still in the process of learning how to manage money.
was in my first wedding as a bridesmaid.
was judged in a way no one should ever be judged.
went to three amazing concerts in one summer...will probably never happen again.
OAR
the Kooks, Rogue Wave, Death Cab for Cutie
Sigur ros
my dog died.
started this blog.
got my second tatoo.
1 john 4:18-19
-LOVE-
got to do what i love and lead amazing middle schoolers over the summer and whenever i go home.
became way more outgoing.
gave a boy my number.
i still struggle with not feeling important around my friends, or feeling like a burden.
i think those are just the biggies, some more than others, but if i think of anymore i will add them. However, even though all this stuff happened, i haven't changed that much, yeah i became more confident, but the same things happen around the same time of year, life is just one thing after another and then repeat...life is like a shampoo bottle.
what will 2009 bring?
12.14.2008
rise
azure ray
rise
today i'll crawl out of bed
i can't stand your shadow is to heavy to lift
maybe we'll go for a ride
you said you'd take me nowhere
i said that suits me just fine
i know you've always been near
whispering secrets i know i'm not supposed to hear
hold your heart with two hands
give it to me only to disappear
and look how low i've sunk don't ask me to rise i'll lose you when i'm high
hey, look how low i've sunk don't ask me to rise i'll only lose you when i'm high...all alone in the dark love survives only when we are apart your voice still stands in my ears soft explosions blossom with the beat of my heart and look how low i've sunk don't ask me to rise i'll lose you when i'm high
hey, look how low i've sunk don't ask me to rise i'll only lose you when i'm high.....high.....
hey look how low i've sunk don't ask me to rise i lost you when i was high...
and look
-these lyrics are just awesome!
rise
today i'll crawl out of bed
i can't stand your shadow is to heavy to lift
maybe we'll go for a ride
you said you'd take me nowhere
i said that suits me just fine
i know you've always been near
whispering secrets i know i'm not supposed to hear
hold your heart with two hands
give it to me only to disappear
and look how low i've sunk don't ask me to rise i'll lose you when i'm high
hey, look how low i've sunk don't ask me to rise i'll only lose you when i'm high...all alone in the dark love survives only when we are apart your voice still stands in my ears soft explosions blossom with the beat of my heart and look how low i've sunk don't ask me to rise i'll lose you when i'm high
hey, look how low i've sunk don't ask me to rise i'll only lose you when i'm high.....high.....
hey look how low i've sunk don't ask me to rise i lost you when i was high...
and look
-these lyrics are just awesome!
friend zone
wanna know what i think is like the most bogus thing ever.
the friend zone
i mean, really, it is the dumbest thing ever.
some people say they would never date someone because they are to far into the friend zone.
what does that even mean, if we said that about all our friends, then we wouldn't date anyone. i would rather date a good friend of mine, then date someone i wasn't super close with.
ugh, i hate the friend zone, i personally don't think it exisits, if you want to date someone, and are afraid something will happen that you would no longer be friends, then you weren't that good of friends in the first place and why are you even thinking of what could happen if you haven't even started dating yet...jeez
friend zone is idiotic and holds people back from letting people know how they feel.
that's all
the friend zone
i mean, really, it is the dumbest thing ever.
some people say they would never date someone because they are to far into the friend zone.
what does that even mean, if we said that about all our friends, then we wouldn't date anyone. i would rather date a good friend of mine, then date someone i wasn't super close with.
ugh, i hate the friend zone, i personally don't think it exisits, if you want to date someone, and are afraid something will happen that you would no longer be friends, then you weren't that good of friends in the first place and why are you even thinking of what could happen if you haven't even started dating yet...jeez
friend zone is idiotic and holds people back from letting people know how they feel.
that's all
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