10.12.2008

phelps makes my heart hurt

so last week i went to a protest that involved fred phelps going against the community of manhattan...mainly k-state students.
the play that provoked this protest was, 'the laramie project,' the story of a teenage boy who was murdered in 1998 because he was gay, ironically the phelps protested the boys funeral, and now they were protesting the play.
i went to east stadium hoping to get a ticket at the door, i should have known it was going to sell out, but i thought i would give it a shot. i wasn't able to snag a ticket, so i went to go check out the protest happening on the corner of anderson and denison.
there were like 40+ manhattan residents and like 15 people on the phelps side. i thought that was hilarious, and fred phelps wasn't even there, he sends his wife to do the dirty work.
i thought this was funny because there is so much talk about phelpes and his protests...which i disagree with whole-heartdly, but this protest is really important to the phelps and there were only 15 people...could fred be losing steam?
i spent about 45 minutes at the protest running into some classmates and really watching what was happening, the posters cheryl phelps was holding were astonishing, and confusing, she was singing songs that i did not know, she was screaming at the top of her lungs, and no one was listening to her, just making fun of her as they drove by.
at this point tears were coming to my eyes when i read the poster 'God is your enemy,' i just don't understand, her husband is a minister, he knows the bible...at least i think he does, how can they hold posters that say, 'God is your enemy,' or 'God hates fags,' because God does not preach hate, or posters like, 'God hates america,' i just i don't understand. my heart just started hurting for her
i had to keep telling myself, if i don't want them to judge me, i cannot judge them. I do not believe that God is working in them, God would not have humans telling other humans that he hates us. some would say, 'they do that because they think they are doing Gods work.' telling us God hates us is not doing Gods work, it's doing the oppisite.
i also had to keep reminding myself, i do not know fred phelps heart, his wifes heart, and all the other protesters hearts, i do not know were they stand with their christianity, if they are chrisians. i just have too remember that God is love and he would never want me to think that he hates me.
i wish the phelps would go away. i would also like someone to finally stand up to them, people have tried and some have succeeded, but the love of Christ has still not gotten through to them, which makes me ask...how can they think they are Christians?
i am angry because they make me look bad, they make my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ look bad, and that's not okay with me.
i am also a little angry that the phelps are all talk, they say they are going to protest anything they disagree with, which again i am not okay with, but phelps; if you are going to say you are going to be somewhere, don't send your posse to do your work for you and don't half-ass it, go big or go home, and because you haven't been doing that, i think you are finally realizing what you are doing is wrong.

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