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why did i call my blog clumsy faith?
when i was asked the question, if you could write a book about yourself, what would you name it?
i responded with, clumsy faith.
but why did i come up with that answer?
i have been a Christian for about 8 years, and i have been nothing but clumsy with my relationship with Christ. i make silly decisions, don't apologize, judge, stereotype, get mad at God first, before anything else, and i don't put full trust in him.
i am clumsy, and yes we are human, we make mistakes, but through all this clumsiness, i have never lost faith in Jesus, another phrase for clumsy faith, could also be blind faith.
i like to doubt, and think the worst in situations, i don't want to get my hopes up in the case i might get disappointed.
but out of all the words in the English language why did i choose the word clumsy?
it goes back to the song, clumsy by our lady peace.
there could not be a more perfect song to define me.


Throw away the radio
Suitcase...Keeps you awake
Hide the telephone, the telephone
Telephone in case...You realize that
Sometimes your just not OK
You level out, level out, level out
It's not alright now...You need to understand
There's nothing strange out this
You need to know your friends...You need to know that

I'll be waving my hand
Watching you drown, watching you scream, quiet or loud
And maybe you should sleep
And maybe you just need...A friend
As clumsy as you've been there's no one laughing
You will be safe in here, you will be safe in here

Throw away this very old...shoe lace
Tripped you again
Try to shrug it off, shrug it off, shrug it off
Sow the skin now
You need to understand...there's nothing fake about this
You need to let me in...watching you and

I'll be waving my hand
Watching you drown, watching you scream, no one's around
And maybe you should sleep
And maybe you just need...A friend
As clumsy has you've been, there's no one laughing
You will be safe in here, you will be safe in...

I'll be wavin my hand...Watching you drown...
Watching you scream...Quiet or loud...
And maybe you should sleep
And maybe you just need...A friend
As clumsy as you've been, there's no one laughing
You will be safe in here, you will be safe in here...Yeah
You will be safe in here...in here...Yeah
in here...Yeah...in here...Yeah...in here...Yeah
in here...Yeah....in here...Yeah

so why did i choose the word clumsy?
because every time i have been clumsy, no one has laughed and God hasn't laughed.
i need to keep my faith in him and trust that i will always be safe in his presence.