this is my dad

this is why i love this movie...the first 1:17 of this clip represents my dad so well.

but. shhhh...don't tell him. ;)

--this clip also represents why i love tinker bell so much...but of course, i love my dad more.

* i got one hand in my pocket and the other one's giv'n a peace sign

i apologize for not being around...

this peace corps thing is becoming very real-me
that's a good thing!-sam
it is! it is a good thing but i am... eez scary though, i used to hate that feeling of being content now that i am, i like it. it's something i'm not used to.-me

so i am in the process of possibly joining the peace corps and there has been one thing i have forgotten;
doing this makes the most sense for who i am, what i want to do in life, what i am called to do and it is the road that will help me get to where i want to be. it is the answer for starting the rest of my life.
however, can i do this? can i be isolated for two years, be away from my family? be away from my friends who i cherish? or be away from that person who loves me and who i want to be with?
then i think of all the things i won't have...possibly not being able to worship the lord like i want, wear the cloths i want, or have christmas dinner...will i be able to have skittles ever? or watch an american movie?!
i want to do this, i do! i can see myself doing this and thriving at it, it is just, there are so many variables that intertwine with this decision.
so, this is what i am going to do...go through the application process like i have been and remember that this is still a year away and not forget about the life i am living now...because right now, right this moment, i would not want to pass it up for anything.

*the pocket holds everything else in my life that i am not sure if i am ready to leave.

evolution..in the ittiest bit of a nutshell

i went to this museum last summer and it was all about evolution...

here was the sequence of what i saw!

the sun + oxygen = earth!

--this was the start--

in the creation of earth and all living there were five major extinctions…then a sixth.

round one: this is where water came into play and was found.

round two:

Continents drifted together, forests and desserts were formed

the egg!

reptiles

during this extinction plant fossils have been determined to help know which season it is.

round three:

Mmesozoic era—183 million year span

periods--triassic, jurassic, cretaceous

coming alive: mammels, flowers, dinosaurs (started as tetrapods)

one out of five dinosaurs survived

round four:

continents shifted again!

50% of marine animals were extinct

95% of land plants were extinct…mainly in the northern regions

round five:

there is now over 50% of life on earth…humans!

no more dinosaurs

period: cenozoic

now!!!

three ways to be born:

plantals

marsupials

monotrenes

mammels:

rodents, hoofed mammels, carnivorans, primates

tropical plants/life:

birds

fish

Sea and water life

lucy:

3.2 million years ago

from eastern africa

one of the first hominids

-they had larger brains, flatter faces, smaller teeth, bigger trunk and smaller limbs

homosapians

-evolved around 195,000 million years ago

--according to the field museum of chicago dna supports evolution--

ice age:

1.8 million years ago today

life looked like it does today

this is when the land between north america and south america merged

types of animals: horses, dogs, bears, elephants, panthers, deer, mice, bison, gofers, beavers, etc.

tar traps began—oil was starting to kill animals.

round six:

today

began around 10,000 years ago

humans are the cause of this mass extinction—not climate change, and no, not merging continents…but, human activity

within the past year 30,000 species have gone extinct

in about one day on average 85 species go extinct

--i think this exhibit was telling us that we all fail.--

i try

you may not be her 1st,her last,or her only. she loved before, she may love again. but if she loves you now, what else matters? she's not perfect- you aren't either, and the 2 of you may never be perfect together, but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can.

or

i may not be their 1st, their last, or only. they may have loved before, they may love again, but if they love me now, what else matters?they aren't perfect-neither am i, and the 2 of us may never be perfect together, but if we can make each other laugh, cause the other to think twice and both admit to being human and to making mistakes, i hope they hold on to me...because i will hold on to them and give me the most they can...because i will give them the most i can.

wish right now

1...it's hard for me to use the word, but it happened. i fell for you.
2...that doesn't happen in my life by the way.
3...i don't allow it to
4...you proved why

self-explanitory...

"why am i afraid to dance, i who love music and rhythm and song and laughter? why am i afraid to live, i who love life and the beauty of the flesh and the living colors of the earth and sky and sea? why am i afraid to love, i who love love?"

...no need for a title

didn't know this still happens...

i'm 22.
losing three close friends within the past five months due to stupid drama should not happen.
i'm not 14 anymore.